You refuse to kick while I’m around

We are in week 18 of your pregnancy. Everyday I hear stories about you moving around inside of your mother’s stomach. She tells me how she can feel every movement. Every kick.

Some days she will call me into the room and tell me to place my hand on her stomach. I will literally move your mother’s hand and place mine where she just felt you kick. I feel nothing. I move my hand around, I feel nothing.

It’s like you already know how to play games with me. The funny thing is I actually enjoy it. I’m not going to enjoy it when you’re older and possibly smarter than I am.

One day you’re going to kick really hard and I will feel your kicks. That’s what makes me excited the most. I wish you were already here. Grandma and Grandpa keep telling me that you will be here sooner than I can believe.

Grandma & Grandpa are over the moon!

As far as you’re concerned, your entire universe exists inside your little womb; you have no idea how much love you’re already surrounded by and how excited your family is to meet you. Your grandparents are creating a second nursery in anticipation of being a huge part of your life. Grandma Lila is planning the baby shower and Grandpa Chris has been coming up with lots of suggestions for what to name you.

On April 23rd, 2017, Grandma Lila posted this announcement on Facebook, generating lots of excitement from friends and family. We are all so looking forward to seeing you for the first time and getting to know everything about you.

     

You should know that your grandparents are so obviously in love and best friends. They are so cute together and I love their energy. They are always on the move, going to events, out at the lake with their jetski, camping, hanging out with friends and loving life. They’re a wonderful example of what I want for your father and I when we are their age. I can’t wait for you to meet them!

Hi Baby

Baby Panda's First Picture

It was April 3rd, 2017. It was late in the morning, around 10:30 am, when your mother mentioned she was not feeling so well. I asked her if she was having morning sickness. That’s the exact moment we thought about you.

I work for a web development company called WebDevStudios.com. I support websites. Your mother is between jobs and has a few interviews lined up that seem to be very promising. Until 10:30 am that morning, we were anti-children. We told our friends and family we were not going to have kids. Anytime someone asked us about having kids, we simultaneously say “I don’t want to have children”. At one time, we said it at the same time.

Your mother has PCOS. Google it sometime. Essentially, doctors told your mother it would be near impossible for her to have kids. I, your father, had a vasectomy at the age of 22. Google that later as well. Essentially, it prevents me from having kids. I was so sure about not having kids.

I met your mother on June 18th, 2016. I picked her up for our first date. On our first date, we discussed how we felt about children. We both agreed we didn’t want to have children.

When I first met your mother she was taking birth control for her PCOS. After a while, she stopped taking it because it gave her pretty traumatic mood swings. We were not worried about it because of my vasectomy.

On April 3rd, 2017 your mother took a pregnancy test. The results were positive. We both stared at each other and at the test for some time. We were pretty shocked. Your mother took another test a couple hours later. We got the same results.

After the second pregnancy test, we both looked at each other and decided to welcome you into our lives. I used to make jokes about having abortions and not wanting kids. Maybe I’ll tell you about those someday. After the second pregnancy test, I stopped making those jokes.

It’s one thing to make a joke and have some pretty dumb theories about life. It’s another thing once you find out you’re going to be a father and a mother.

The first thing we did was reach out to my company and we put your mother on my insurance. Once we had confirmation of insurance, we started calling around asking for advice on what to do next. A person at my insurance company told us to make an appointment and get an ultrasound. You can Google what those are. You can also look at the picture on this blog post and see the very first image of yourself.

I’m going, to be honest with you for a minute.

Because of her PCOS, we thought all of her current symptoms were coming from the disease. It’s quite frequent of your mother to miss her periods.

We thought your mother was a month into her pregnancy. Once we went and had the ultrasound taken, we discovered your mother was 4 month into her pregnancy. This was the most shocking news we had to date. The ultrasound technician told us we were having a little boy.

I use to hack your mother’s cell phone and post random messages on her Facebook profile. Funny little things. The day we went to get the ultrasound, we posted your picture. I let your mother post it on my Facebook page. Making it seem like she had been waiting for the right time to hack my profile. People congratulated us.

This was the first time we told our friends and family about you.

Since day one, you’ve been welcomed into our lives, and the lives of all our friends.

Ever sense that day on April 3rd, we have thought about you and discussed every detail of your life. From how we are going to raise you to where we’re going to live.

Your mother is very excited and can’t wait to meet you. You are moving around inside of her tummy. Some days you’re moving around constantly. She wants you to know she can feel every tiny little thing that you’re doing.

I have thought about you for a very long time. Even though I used to make jokes about not having children, in my head, I have had conversations with you. I can’t imagine life without you and your mother.

Your mother and I, we truly believe we’re soul mates. Because of this belief, we think you’re a sign that all of this was meant to be.

We love you.